Friday 2 March 2012

Ch-ch-changes

Some I like, some I don't. The last 6 months have been quite full on. AND, kids wanting to give school a go, new baby, trying to get the planning stage of the new house off the ground. I'm tired just thinking about it.

School has been going for a month now. It's, ummmm, interesting. ok let's just say I am having a much harder time handling it, than the kids. It's hard to let go of something that has been your domain for several years. Let go of being the one to plan and write up the kids syllabus, sit with them, be there through the day to discuss their work.

They are all liking it so far, which is the one thing I am focusing on. It is after all, about them. Damn kids, growing up to be just how you want them to be. Speaking their mind, determined, strong, wanting to give new things a go.

So what we have, is 3 little girls home with their Mumma. Oh what fun that is! No seriously it IS fun, but it is also tiring. I haven't had 3 little ones with me since I had my first 3. Miss 2 is so smitten with her baby sister. She loves her, wants to kiss her, squeeze her, lay on her, share biscuits with her. I have never had to work so hard to protect one of my babes.

I miss the kids a lot during the day. It was busier, louder and more crazy when all 7 were here, but I still miss it.
Life changes whether we want it to or not. I am not ready for so many changes that have happened, and are soon to happen. I have to just hold on and hope for the best at times. Hope that our decisions will turn out ok. Hope that we have the strength to see if something is not working and change or tweak it.

Growing up still sucks, at 32.